Life catches up to us. It tends to present itself unannounced and in some cases uninvited. We go through still moments in our busy life where we encounter the depth of feeling stuck in place. Our lives become a repeating routine of sleep, eat, work, school, etc. Occasionally we will experience the life changing decisions that redirect our course in life such as marriage, having a baby, buying a house, a new job. This is life right? This is the expectation we have. I believe God created this unimaginably large world for us to enjoy and take care of, but I fear we miss these opportunities without even realizing. How many doors have opened that I have unintentionally closed? Far too many. Was I too busy with this life to not notice? Did I pass them by out of fear? Or perhaps I prolong the inevitable. I realize I don’t close my doors all the way; I leave them ajar as a child would when they fear the dark.
Since I was a wee little girl, I have adored and cherished books. I live and breathe the need of digging my nose into an adventure that is written down in words. My love for movies most likely stems from this as well. My ideal day is sitting in a cafe with a coffee, close to a window, preferably a comfy chair, a good book and people that I can watch move about their day. I have no shame in spending twenty dollars drinking coffee and eating a muffin or three. Words have the capability to create something beautiful within your imagination. Ever since I have expressed and shown this desire and love for books and writing I have been told, “so when are you going to write a book?” I continually laugh it off because the idea of creating something my own is honestly terrifying. I don’t enjoy being stressed with the lack of accomplishment.
These past two years I have never been so incredibly challenged in my life; living a healthy marriage, embracing an unfamiliar job, raising a very happy and wild puppy, and buying a lovely house. Along with these new experiences came many more voices asking and demanding I write a book. So why not take the bull by the horns and throw another challenge in? When I accepted the challenge, fear set in; fear of failure, fear of writer’s block, fear of being too busy, fear of lack of knowledge, I almost said no thank you, again. Until I realized this would be utterly impossible to achieve without prayer. It was a realization that I cannot do this without God’s help, like many things, but this seemed more extreme. My fears would only be overcome with the hours spent in prayer. God promises us His plan for us is good, it’s always good, because He is always good, but how can we take action in His plan? Prayer, prayer and more prayer. One of my favorite bible verses says,
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.Jeremiah 29:11
It’s always been a favorite, but it wasn’t until recently that I truly believed it. God doesn’t want us to fail. Our prayers may be answered differently than we expect, but no, never does He want us to fail. There are specific people placed in my life right now that I have realized God has put there to be resources as I embark on this journey. It will be a long adventure, but one I am ready to embrace only by the grace and love of God.
Don’t fear the start of something new. God has blessed you with the ability to love the things He has given us on this earth. We were created to pursue the hobbies and joys of this world whatever that may be. After all, we only have an average of eighty years to live on this earth. Don’t close the doors or leave them ajar when they present themselves. Open it, pray it through and live it. Live life pleasing and fulfilling God’s plan for you. You may be surprised where it takes you; I sure was.
Who you become will be determined by how you pray.Mark Batterson
Love. Be loved. Know love.