An insignificant God, that is sometimes how I find myself viewing God. Not consciously of course but in my actions, words, and beliefs. I find myself saying, “Is that really the kind of God I believe him to be?” I am reading through this book called The Circle Maker by Mark Batterson. It is a book on prayer that showed me how we view God so insignificantly. I feel prayer is a struggle for many Christians and non-Christians, but why is it so troubling and confusing? Is it a “duty” we feel we must do? Well, it says to do it in the Bible, so we have to, right?
My all time favorite children’s book is The Giving Tree. If you haven’t already read it I highly encourage you to take the 3 minutes that it would take for you to read it. The simplicity of this book is what makes me adore it so much. Shel Silverstein wrote many books, mostly humorous poetry books like Where the Sidewalk Ends and A Light in the Attic. The story line is so basic yet so moving to me because I feel that this is the way we were created to live our life. Sometimes all we need to do is to take it back to the basics of children books to teach us a lesson on life.
I recently spent a week up in Prescott, Arizona at UCYC, United Christian Youth Camp. There is something beautiful and so deeply moving when you see a group of 300+ students unite together lifting their hands in the air and crying out to a God that wants to know their heart’s desires and pains. These kids capture my heart in every way. Tears of joy stream from my face when I think of all that they are capable of doing. We need adults, parents and non-parents, and college students to feed and pour everything we have into the younger generations. They are the future, they are the ones that can change the world. They need guidance and wisdom to lead them down the path that God desires them to be down. I have messed up one too many times as a junior higher, high school student and a college student and I believe it is imperative that they know our faults and the consequences. We have an incredible and merciful God that forgives us but we are all born to be leaders and we need to raise the youth to be leaders so that they can continue to build up their community and society and in turn change the world so that all can see what a magnificent Savior we have. If they are obedient to God, they are capable of shaking lives with their voices, moving hearts towards God, and raising up their generation to change the way our world thinks, breathes and lives their life.
“’You would not have called to me unless I had been calling to you,’ said the Lion.”—C.S. Lewis (The Silver Chair)
Something you must know about me is that I love C.S. Lewis. He is my all time favorite author and inspires me daily. I have been thinking about the past few years and how I have gotten to where I am today. Three years ago is where my life took a dramatic turn and it hasn’t been until recently that I realized this, but when you just jump in, God reveals to you so much.
Three years ago I was living with three other girls in a house in Tempe, Arizona. I was attending a church that was full of college students like me. However, I got to this point where I felt this calling and need to go into student ministries. I absolutely love working with kids whether it be teenagers or younger. They have this aliveness to them that captures my heart. My church was solely a student church so I felt God calling me to look around at bigger churches. My roommate was dating a guy who lived with a couple of dudes and one was a junior high youth pastor of a church called Central Christian Church. I had attended once before and enjoyed it. She did me a favor and asked her boyfriend to ask his buddy the youth pastor if they needed any leaders in their ministry. He was just coming on to staff so he said yes, any help he could get would be awesome. He told me that there was a huge leadership meeting at the church three days from now and asked if I could make that. I was hesitant at first because I knew absolutely no one but for some reason I felt the need to jump in and go. I trusted my gut and I trusted God.